The Stress of Life

I have always known that life can be very stressful, and before attending college I thought I knew what stress was. I was ready for the day I would be on my own and doing what I wanted, pretty much when I wanted... or so I thought.

I moved to St Louis and, at first, enjoyed the freedom that it brought. I spent time in school and looking for a job, but also spent alot of time just being your typical "new to college" person. I spent time at the mall and just going from place to place, enjoying what life had to offer.

Then I had to move to a new apartment, stressful as it always is to go to a new place, but I at least knew the people I was moving in with. I spent time trying to fit in with my new roommates and for a while things seemed to be doing better, then I get the news... my father lost his job.

Like anyone that is still dependant on family but living on ones own, it was devastating. I didn't know what to think or do. I knew that I should try to finish off my degree at college before I tried to move with them, yet at the same time, the thought of being away from my mother and father was a very stressful thought.

I stayed behind and continued to attempt college, with increasingly worsening results. I then received the news that I would be moving yet again, and this time I would be forced to share a room with someone who, although was and is a friend, has a personality that is not very easy for me to be around. He also was a smoker which I knew could be a problem when it came to my asthma, but I dealt with it and kept a close eye on my asthma.

Now, several months later, I am so far below the required GPA for financial aid that I don't know how I am going to get out of this hole, and I am preparing for yet another move. But this move, unlike all the moving I have done over the past year and a half, will be different. I won't be moving to another apartment to keep attending this same college. I will be moving in with my mother and my father to find and attend a community college in New Jersey, where I will start a different degree progam. I will be working on getting a degree in Music.

Although I will be glad to be rid of the stress that living on my own has brought, i am also going to miss the freedom that living on my own has brought. I will no longer be living life on my rules that I set, but then again, I never really did live life by my rules, just rules I percieved to put into place.

I will say that I am glad that I will be with mom and dad again, and hope that next time I move out, it's just to live in a house a few miles away, where I can go to visit them or they can visit me, and all it takes is a few minutes to get to one another.

Until my next blog, may the peace of god be with you till we meet again.